Post by kouji on May 10, 2009 21:58:54 GMT
12/24/1925
Christmas Eve.. Not sure why I'm always so angry, so irratable. I'm hurting those I claim to care for terribly, when used too it was my goal to only piss off Roy. Now, though it's upseting me. I snap at every little thing and I'm not entirely sure why. I'm even upseting Al.. Not something I'm ever proud of nor will I ever be. I once made it my goal to give Al his body back after destroying him in an attempt to bring back our mother.. Why, why, why?! Do I keep hurting and upseting him? It's not right to him or anyone else the way I've been behaving.
I'll have to do something special tomarrow to make up for all I've said that has hurt him of late. I'm not the best person right now and I don't even understand why. Most of the time I want to be left alone... I don't get it.. He's clinging to be like I'm dying.. I suppose I am dead to him now with the way I snap at him now or just ignore him... I'd rather be dead than have him look at me one more time with such fear or sadness in his eyes... I hate hurting him but I don't realize I've done so until it's too late....
Christmas Eve.. Not sure why I'm always so angry, so irratable. I'm hurting those I claim to care for terribly, when used too it was my goal to only piss off Roy. Now, though it's upseting me. I snap at every little thing and I'm not entirely sure why. I'm even upseting Al.. Not something I'm ever proud of nor will I ever be. I once made it my goal to give Al his body back after destroying him in an attempt to bring back our mother.. Why, why, why?! Do I keep hurting and upseting him? It's not right to him or anyone else the way I've been behaving.
I'll have to do something special tomarrow to make up for all I've said that has hurt him of late. I'm not the best person right now and I don't even understand why. Most of the time I want to be left alone... I don't get it.. He's clinging to be like I'm dying.. I suppose I am dead to him now with the way I snap at him now or just ignore him... I'd rather be dead than have him look at me one more time with such fear or sadness in his eyes... I hate hurting him but I don't realize I've done so until it's too late....